Happy 20th Birthday to Shila! :)
sorry for the very late post :( cos laptop crash n all..


Held a mini celebration for Shila at cp :)

Yiting, Fred and I hid away at a corner away while the rest waited at usual place for Shila to come. She reached le then we walked up slowly to her and all of us started singing birthday song :D

I've got a present from my teacher
nono, she never teach me before, but she the chair person.
she called my dad regarding my poor attendance. telling him i need to retake 1yr more and she wants to see both my parents.
dad started calling everyone in the family.
so nw, as a additional present.

i'm grounded

and what is worst, everyone is not happy.

but the funny thing is?
my laptop send for service, 2 weeks.
friend had helped me to try borrow laptop from sch when i tried to borrow but no more at around 9am++, friend helped me go borrow at 8.10am, also no more laptop for loan.
a facilitator once said this to a student 'u got no laptop u come to class i also dunno how to grade u. u cant do research or anything and if u borrow ur friend's laptop, u hinder ur friend's progress'

so awesome. go also got teacher say, dont go will kena call parents.

mum talked to me just nw if i wanna quit and go for private. private is so expensive, our family can't support it. so i decided to continue going for it even if need to retake 1 more yr and not have anymore friends in school. afterall i've wasted close to 3yrs there.

science is never my thing. i've said clearly from the very start i rather study logistic in higher nitec den to go poly study something i dont like. but yea.. i had no choice.

Happy (not) Birthday to me..

oh yah.. i've expected weeks ago that this yr's birthday is ruin, all the mood n stuff. and i was right.

as requested by Jon!

i wan...

Laptop
Slimming Pills
Fat Burner Pills
Supplements (those can make 1 person don't feel hungry de)

and no! i dont wan Jon as a present! suggested by Jun. wrap in ricesack some more -.-

People rejects you, be it love life or the society

guys reject you cause your fat, they don't have the face to bring you out and show off you to their friends. they find you fat so they choose to stay with some slim or better figure girls even if the girls are not true towards them, so they can show to their friends.

society rejects you with examples like certain jobs, they only wan pleasant looking, well figure girls to be working for them. like models, how often do you see a plus size model in Singapore? you bought the public transport and sat down, people will choose to sit at other place first before out of no choice, they have to squeeze with you. when walking down the streets, people bang u and nudge u like your blocking the way just because your slightly larger then them.

It really is a sin to be fat, here in Singapore, where guys are all so superficial, wanna get a bf or husband? better slim down first before finding, if not you'll only get your heart broken again and again.

reading book: twilight, page 87

working tomorrow...
wanted to work next friday but had meeting till late so can't.. and the supervisor insist i work next saturday. so working next sat. greatness..

will be back, when i'm feeling better.. mean while, MIA..

Last Update of what i wan...



dang offered but she cook one confirm can't eat. xuetingJM also offered and hers can eat de bah.. but the candles lei? and must be romantic de wor!! dim lights, soft music playing at the background.. *dream away* but yeah i don't want it anymore...

well for the wishful thinking part..
i've gotten myself a part time job already :D
and no i don't wan a boyfriend anymore, maybe cos i find it too troublesome with this something call 'feelings' some will know why..


today was a very bus ride day for me. took 168 from Tampines to woodland. transfer to train till Jurong East. took bus to Acer, from Acer took bus back to Jurong East. from Jurong East took bus to Orchard. from Orchard too bus to Bedok. from Bedok took bus back to Tampines. total time i spend on bus rides? more then 3hrs i think.. cool! my butt will get bigger this way

made a new friend. jiahong, she's 16. same surname as me.. she got intro in by her mum. we went to walk around orchard after taking jab and everything together. den had subway. den seperate ways back.

i'll be working at Meritus Mandarin as banquet waitress. I'll most probably be working friday-monday. and every thur i will let them know when i can work and when i can't for the next week. so if wanna ask me out on weekends, let me know ok, before thursday :)



Disappointed in myself, in everything i'm doing, in everything i've got to face.