I feel this piercing pain again…
Why am I so afraid of losing you, when your not mine in the first place?
Is it the end already? If it is, just tell me straight please.. that the least I ask for..

This is Blackie and Blackie is male. Caught this at the new shop at Jurong Point, the one at Marina Square. Can catch a lot of toys de. Spent a total about $22 or around there for him. His head and ear so super duper HEAVY! His body is like so small yet he got big and heavy head and ears. Blackie can’t even stand on it own without falling =.=” but he is still cute!

With his eye like this, it always sleeping or looks so sleepy. Blackie kept me warm throughout the movie, Easy A. I heard a few comments that the show is not bad but I personally find it a bit boring but it still nice.

Cookie and Brownie kept scratching me when I went to visit them but their both still so cute and fluffy! Love Cookie so much especially when he wag his tail or sit on my lap asking for attention. Both Cookie and Brownie are attention seekers and will push one another away if I am patting either one of them.

Blackie is not staying at my house so there is a chance that Fishy might bully him!

I miss you, I miss how close we used to be. I miss how I get to hear your voice everyday in the past. I miss how I can go and find you for dinner after my lesson ends. I miss how we used to text one another so much. I miss you…

I am glad I had lots of soft toys even though my mum had threw away lots of others. For an example, these few days I am feeling very down and I really need people accompany but I couldn’t find any as it a weekday and there is no work for me either. So I return home from school and started to hug Pinky and Baby Stitch, playing with them which occupy me.

Today, I was drench from the heavy rain because I choose to walk and cross the traffic light instead of the overhead bridge to interchange from school. My shoes and jeans were wet and it felt super uncomfortable. Board the bus 969 and I was freezing cold inside because of the aircon. plus my wet clothes. Emo thoughts start to run through my mind. Walked in the rain again when I reached Tampines interchange, walked back home and I am wet again.

Went into my room and something cheered me up It feels good to have people to greet me when I am home, like when mummy is home and she’ll smile at me and talk.

Look who greeted me! Pinky was lying down there on the bed, camouflage with the bedsheet but still visible… She was smiling and looking at me which made me felt a lot better  

I just want more attention and care and love from you…

Everyone at work is complaining to me that once you do well in something and is fast, the manager will keep asking you to do it. Meaning, in 1 hour, you do more things than the rest. So now I had done dining, veggies, inside,  I am only left to learn with Subs and she already is asking me to multi-task at work. Will I be next, to be "aim" by the manager?

7 November was my birthday. Celebrated my birthday twice this year. 6 November, I met up with Junhui and Zhaohwee and we went to Marina Square. Camwhore lots with Junhui at the Mrt platform..

Junhui wanted to take a picture of me because I kept complaining that my dress was too short for me and I was having trouble with it. Being evil as USUAL, she took candid shots. This particular picture shows that I am trying to stop her from taking it but I failed, thus the 2nd picture which shows a sad face  

Walked around Marina Square because I wanted to buy safety pants as my dress was too short. We had wanted to eat our lunch at Changing Appetizer but after walking around and arriving at the spot. The exact location where Changing Appetizer was suppose to be, was GONE! It was covered up under construction for a new diner.

Before walking to Changing Appetizer’s location, we saw this shop selling stuffs from Korea and we went in! Bought some drinks and they were delicious! Yummy Yummy! We had actually plan to go back to the stall but we forgot about it.

So Changing Appetizer was no longer there and we were all super hungry. I couldn’t find my pants too which was saddening. In the end, we used the convention method to decide on where to have our lunch, Scissors Paper Stone. NewYork Newyork won!

Walked all the way back to City Link but this time, we used the Esplanade Link to walk back instead. Chionged to NewYork NewYork as I was very very hungry already!! Sat down and started browsing through the menu. Junhui and Zhaohwee were still looking through the appetizers when I decided my main course (I was that hungry)!!

We ordered 3 appetizers, 3 main course and 3 drinks. Took our order and we started to camwhore since we had nothing to do!

This drink was suppose to be Junhui’s but all the cream makes her reject it and pass it to Zhaohwee instead. SINFUL!! It Cream and Chocolate!

I forgot what this is but Junhui end up drinking this which was ordered by Zhaohwee.

This is my drink! Bloody Eyeballs which actually is just gas-ey Grape with 2 Lychee and 2 Black Jelly.

Our Appetizers came soon after. Mashed Potato for Junhui. The rest were shared among us. The big platter (Buffalo drum, Calamari Ring, French Fries and Fried Mushroom), some Rib meat thingy.

Took some pictures while waiting for the main course. Our main course was delayed because the platter’s plate was so big that it occupy most of the table so the waiter went to put it on hold but forgot to ask the chef to start preparing after we finished it.

They took pictures of me eating the “eyeball” and there were many unglam pictures taken which I didn’t publish because it too ugly! My reaction towards the “eyeball” were… eeeeew!

Our main course finally arrived after we took so many pictures and asked for it. Junhui had Dory Fish which she said the one in her school (TP) is nicer. I had Black Pepper Steak and it was too hard and Zhaohwee had whole chicken. We were already quite full from our appetizers and drinks!

Junhui and Zhaohwee at Candy Floss and we settled the bill. Cost lesser then the actual price because we signed for their member and had birthday discount and member discount I think  

We went to Ion after that to buy my present and of cos, look around for my pants!

Walked around Ion to buy my present and walked to Taka to Taka to buy Beard Papa and to 313. Went to this café called Blue Mountain and ordered dessert and drinks The dessert was my birthday cake! It Ice Cream Mudpie? haha!

Went to CityHall to meet up with James and Justin, together with their friends. We went to Funan and had dinner and went to Minds Café at Boat Quay! It my first time going to Minds Café and I heard so much about it. Had lots of fun over there  

James bought me a Brownie over there for me to eat It was yummy and I think it costly!! Played lots of games over there and I find myself super blur at most of it but in the end I had fun  

7 November, James treated me to Manhattan Fish Market at Plaza Sing and we went to watch movie, Due Date. The movie was hilarious! worth to watch Took lots of pictures with James too

Many thanks to James, Junhui and Zhaohwee for celebrating my birthday with me Gotten a few presents too from them and from family. Perfume from Eldest sister, Books from 2nd sister, Angbao from Mummy, Slippers from Junhui and Zhaohwee, Necklace from James  

Thank you to those who wished me in Facebook and through sms too