FARK! The year is ending soon but my father still wanna give me hell! Thanks super a lot man! He have officially makes me HATE him super much!since primary school till now! all the cruel words he said to me, I REMEMBER them!

Primary school, cause of my poor results, keep saying he disown me, don’t ever tell people my surname is Han and don’t tell people he is my father.

I obey, I stop greeting him when he come home from work or when I talk to him.

Secondary school, I keep staying at home play game, never go out. He scold me say I am always facing the computer, never go out. Due to poor results also, he once again say he disown me, I am no longer his daughter. Don’t tell people I am and don’t use his surname anymore.

I obey, all my school work and other things, other then official things like exams or government thing, I don’t write my surname in front of my name anymore. I don’t tell new people I know what is my surname unless they asked. And yes, I still don’t greet him unless needed and I don’t call him ‘Daddy’ when I call him.

Poly, I started going out with my friends but is always home before 12am.

Poly (year 3) onwards, I started going home late, in the AMs. Hanging out with my friends and have fun, chit chat, gossip, drink. I went home late ALMOST everyday. I started drinking, I started going clubbing (cos of someone) or playing mahjong. He scolded me for going out till morning everyday.

I obey, I tried to make it home by 12am everyday. Sometimes 1 whole week I don’t even go out at night unless for dinner and made sure I am home by 12am. I started playing mahjong at home instead of friend’s house. I only go out till morning or AMs once per week or not even once unless festive season (eg: Christmas Eve, New Year Eve)

My mum gave me a rule saying that I must be on by 12am on school days, I can go home late when I’ve got no school the next day.

But now? I played mahjong just now at home 1 round and went for supper at 201 cos I was hungry as I didn’t feel hungry when dinner time. We ate, we gossip till first bus and went home straight. He came talking loudly to me saying that I cannot play mahjong at home anymore since I still go home late.

HELLO! I’ve already cut down so much on my ‘going home late’ times. Mahjong play at home also is he suggest and I obey. But when my friends come over and play, he complaint. JUST WHAT THE HELL HE WANT?

I know he hates me A LOT! Every time he see me, he’ll surely nag or scold me be it little things or big things. I stay at home he also nag say I never go this, I never do that, I always do this, I always do that. When i go out and go home, he say I always go out or always go out till so late. When I go my sister’s house to stay and return home, he say that my mum had to pack my room while I was away. I stay home, he got problem with it. I go out, he got problem with it.

He just simply hates me toooo much till I am such a eyesore to him. Seriously, I’ve already disown him since primary school? What else he want? Everything he say, I listen, I obey, I compromise.

Give me reason why not to hate him? He made my mum almost had a depression with his affair outside and the lies he kept saying! AND! He don’t contribute to the house at all, no money, not even housework, the only thing he do is use his bloody mouth and shoot but never do it himself! He only know how to say but he don’t do it himself. And a guy who lies to his wife, his family. A guy who have affair, why should I not hate him? He caused my mum so much misery, he caused so much financial problem to the family and yet all he think is he is the best! 

One of my 2010 New Year resolution is definitely to find a permanent part time job, earn money, save up and find a room to rent or simply just rent my room from him so we can really be outsiders!

I HATE HIM!