I know I had posted posts like this for soooo many times already that some of my friends are bored of hearing me say the same thing or whine about it but I still want to say it!

I’m starting all over again!

Yes I’ve given up lots of time because:
1) Lazy
2) I lost all the long long words (Determination, Motivation, Perseverance)
3) I learn a new word: Procrastinate
4) I see no result thus I gave up

How many times had I dragged friends out for exercise but in the end I’m the one cancelling it off or how many times had I told myself and the people around me that, “I will do it! I really will  because I want to see the result.” but it all failed so many times.

This time I’m doing the same thing again but hopefully I can do it and last till I get the desire result I want. Why? Because I had enough of feeling like I’m of a lower grade or a hindrance to others. The feeling of rejection don’t feel good at all!

Boarding the public transport and nobody will sit beside me unless they had no choice, because I occupy so much space. The new trains have larger seats but I am still occupying so much that I occupy the whole seat.

Bus are always cramp when it comes to their seats for me and like today, after school. I had to squeeze myself between 2 people even when the space was 1 whole seat. They even had to shift to leave a space between me but we’re still squash.

People say, “If someone really loves you, he/she will love you for who you are regardless of your religion, distance, height, weight, etc” but by helping myself, not only do I benefit myself, my own health, my pocket (smaller clothes are cheaper than plus size) I also create more chances for myself to find love.

Call me stupid, silly or whatever names but I just want to be slim, being fat is not nice at all with all the negative feelings within me and being laughed at or bullied. I’m saying it here because I hope my friends can help me with this :)